I'm amazed how some difficult, painful, and highly annoying situations can contain satisfaction and positive energy. School is taking its toll on me. Most of the time I walk around depleted, angry, and annoyed, because there's so much to do. I can't contain much information in my head anymore. Sometimes, every sentence I read produces a grumbling sound in my throat just because I'm overly irritated. It feels like the neurons in my brain are on crack, firing incessantly. At some point I sit down and cuss at my life, sending everything to hell.
Then, a moment arrives that somehow alleviates the tension and I can see through the dark clouds. I see a shining sun that illuminates my being, reminding me of the reasons why I'm doing what I'm doing. I'm reminded of one of my biggest purposes and finally I can take a breath. I smile to myself, feeling satisfied that I took on this annoying, difficult, and painful journey of education. At that moment, I feel encouraged to go through the motions, slowly but surely. I gather those moments, because they are the ones to sustain me on my journey. No matter how difficult the path is, it is worth only when we know that the path moves us toward our values.
Thank you; I needed that reminder.
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