Choices

Life gives us choices. Sometimes, these choices are easy to make, but sometimes they are not. When doubt emerges, it looks like a helper at first, but when it lasts for a long time, it's a poison. If doubt prevents us from making a productive choice, we tend to make a choice to linger in the middle, which rarely brings satisfaction. It's a stalled position that creates no growth, only turmoil. We may think, "Well, I like the choice A, but I also like the choice B. I can't just let any of them go. I want to choose both." So we fool ourselves by thinking that we chose both, whereas in reality we chose none. Life continues to be lived half-heartedly.
At some point, we realize that sitting on two chairs simultaneously isn't working. We're faced with the same choice again. A or B? Damn, it's still hard. But this time, we approach the dilemma with awareness that only one must be chosen. Whether we feel it's fair or not, limited or not, doesn't change the fact. Either A or B. A or B. There's no AB. Here comes our live's uncomfortable moment, when we risk to be drastically mistaken. Or we risk to terribly miss something that we left behind and thus experience some pain. One thing I'm beginning to realize: One can't live a fulfilling life without taking risks when they are called for. So the choice now is: A fulfilling life or non-fulfilling life? We can't have both.