... And It Is Given

Once again... I confirm...
When we turn to Life and ask for something that we really want or need, it takes heed. How many times have you asked but not seen or felt the results? Does that mean that nothing happened, or could that mean that we just didn't pay attention or connect the dots?

That, which takes for us to actually begin to trust Life is the results that are continuous and observable. Such are human beings. We want to be able to feel the gift with any of our five senses, otherwise we're oblivious or skeptical. Those, who attempt to trust in Life without apparent "evidence" do not look credible.

Does Life care that you want to see it to believe it? No. It just does its own thing and if you connect the dots, you do; if you don't, you don't. At some point, one can choose to start to notice the connection between what is requested and what is given. Many times we will notice that much is indeed given.

Often it happens that Life takes the opposite direction of what we'd have wanted or planned, and then we feel discouraged and disillusioned. But do you really think that you always know better? Do you think that your limited mind supersedes the wisdom of the Universe?  If you do, you're on a long way of perpetual struggle. 

Oscillation

Today is the 4th or 5th day that I eat things that I prefer I didn't eat. Guilt creeps in and begins to torture me. I have gone such a long way to reach my goal weight and finally look the way I wanted to. Certainly, weight loss was reached by eating too little at times. For the past three weeks I have eaten too little due to me being in a different country. Now that I'm back to the States, I crave chocolate, carbs, and all the stuff that my body hasn't cared about earlier.

My question to myself is: Should I continue my routine of constantly thinking about what and how much I eat? Should I constantly be mindful and limiting?

If my answer is yes, I already know that it will lead to stress. And stress will lead to more unnecessary food. So what should I do?

I guess deep down I know that my only option is to accept change. There is no way around it. The more I deny change, the more rigid I become, the more stressed, and the more discontent. I am accepting the fact that there will be days when I will do things that I'm not proud of. Days when I gain weight. And some more. And then I might not even fit into my dress. But, once that happens, I also know that it's in my hands to regulate my weight and get into that dress again.

The case in point: Oscillation is normal within a personally established range. Once you establish it, give yourself some freedom to move anywhere you want within it.